My Christmas

My Christmas was a lot better than I expected for one I got something! And it was a guitar how awesome and my oldest bro gave me 20 bucks that’s kind of cool considering my situation. But sadly enough the diary of a depressed girl doesn’t stay good. We can’t afford rent on our house so we have to move and my mom’s going to check in to a hospital cause her pains are getting worse and that’s not good because she is an epileptic (she has seizure). My bro and sis are going to stay with my sis. And we don’t have a lot of money coming in sense my dad went to jail. So once my mom get out we have to find an apartment we have no idea what’s going to happen to the dogs. And I’m the only one who got something for Christmas. Yet another reason for my bro and sis to hate me

I feel like a Monster

I feel like a Monster I don't like to see babies cry anyone for that matter ,commercials that over sell their product (it’s stupid), I don't like Gorge W. Bush, not a big fan of war, I don't like that I always am sick, or how I look, I don't like my hair, I don't like that I'm only going to be remembered as a random girl who can draw, I rely just don't like myself in general ...........ya I don't like myself....at all. I am absolutely not perfect. Some times I feel like everyone hates me that their trying to kill me in a sense. Oh by the way that is rely a song "Monster" for those who don't know Skillet is the band who made the song. You have no idea how many times I’ve listen to this song. My all time favorite. I hate myself. Ya I hate myself. I want to die so much I have actually prayed to die hasn't yet happened. Well you know that or else I would be able to tell you this whoever stops to read oh um sorry if it boring that's another thing about myself I don't like. Well that's all I'm thinking about now another page of a diary of a depressed girl.

My Toughts

•  My old English teacher told me that when there's something on your mind write about it. I think I might write a book or keep a dream journal or something. I've already starting writhing something that I got from a strange dream I had.
• Me and some friends were tinkling about having a Ritz party like off the commercial. We always do stuff like that and now it feels like normal. We thought of a bunch of cheese fountains and Ritz hats.
• The show that is my all time favorite show scoobydo I know all the theme songs (geek moment).that and the simpsions.
• I've had this cold that just  wont go away i've had it for about week now

Hurt



Some say that as long as you have a mother and farther to "love" you and "care for you" with a roof over you head. You should be happy.Bullshit my mom hates me my dads in jail and so far I'm not feeling the love. I have put up with my moms shit for years to be honest I cant remember feeling loved. My "brother" raped my nephew and tried to do it a second time on Christmas my younger "sister" walked in to see my brother with his underwear around his ankles and my nephew laying on the bed without his underweare  be for he could do anything and all of my nieces and nephews were there. Now my "mom" is trying to send my "brother" to jail hes on parole for attempted rape. And ever sense my dad went to jail my "mom" has been beating the shit out of him and now it has happened so much it has become normal. She also makes him walk to school and my "sister" has become the all time favorite. Everything she ask for she gives her no matter what it is. And it seems that everything is only getting worse sometimes I just want to kill myself.

The History of Halloween

Most people think of Halloween today as simply a day when children dress up in costumes and go from home to home to “trick or treat” and collect enough candy to make any parent cringe. Halloween was much more significant in ancient times, however. October 31st was a very important day to the ancient Celts of Ireland, Scotland and Great Britain. No kidding around in costumes and trick or treat bags; Halloween was much more serious to the non-Christian Cults a thousand years ago.
Halloween originated among the Irish Celts, Scots and Anglo-Saxons in Britain long before the Christian era. Originally called Samhain, it was a time when they believed the division between the worlds of the living and the dead became very thin and when ghosts and spirits were free to wander as they wished. The name “Halloween” is a shorter form for the Gaelic name All-hallow-evening. Pope Boniface IV instituted All Saints' Day in the 7th century as a time to honor saints and martyrs, replacing the pagan festival of the dead. In 834, Gregory III moved All Saint's Day to Nov. 1, thus making Oct. 31 All Hallows' Eve ('hallow' means 'saint').
On the night of Samhain, it was believed spirits of the restless dead and mischievous spirits would freely roam about with humans and during this one night spirits were able to make contact with the physical world as their magic was at its height. The Celts believed that by allowing the dead to have access to the world on this one evening, they would be satisfied to return to the land of the dead. The Celtic people would put out food offerings to appease the spirits who might inflict suffering and violence on them and Celtic priests would offer sacrifices, animal and human, to the gods for the purpose of chasing away the evil, frightening spirits. They built fires where they gave sacrifices to the Celtic deities to ensure protection from the dead spirits. Samhain was also a time when it was customary for the pagans to use the occult practice of divination to determine the weather for the coming year, the crop expectations, and even who in the community would marry whom and in what order.
When Rome took over their land, the Samhain was integrated with two other Roman festivals: Feralia and a festival to honor Pomona, the Roman goddess of fruit and trees. By the time Christianity come on the scene, Halloween had already taken root from the pagan beliefs and was integrated into Christian practices. As the Europeans found their way to the New World, they brought with them their traditions which soon evolved to fit their new country.
Many customs still observed today come from these ancient beliefs. For example, the elaborately carved jack-o-lantern is said to have been named after the Irish story of a greedy, hard-drinking gambling man, Stingy Jack, who tricked the Devil into climbing a tree and trapped him there by carving a crude cross into the trunk of the tree. In revenge for being stuck in the tree, the Devil cursed Jack and made him walk the earth at night for eternity. The jack-o-lantern of today is carved with a scary face to keep Jack and other spirits from entering their homes.
A problem for the Celtic people was... if the souls of dead loved ones could return that night, so could anything else, human or not, nice or not-so-nice. So, to protect themselves on such an occasion, these superstitious people would masquerade as one of the demonic hoard, wearing masks and other disguises and blackening the face with soot to hopefully blend in unnoticed among them. This is the source of modern day Halloween costumes portraying devils, imps, ogres, and other demonic creatures.

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